BIG STUFF!

Regardless of what this blog is - I just wanna put it out there. Not being on Facebook is FABULOUS, but sometimes its refreshing to put your thoughts down. Plus, I figure for the people who I actually WANT to be in touch with - I can send them here to check in on me. Here's the BIG stuff you maybe missed since I've been off the grid..... (deep breath)..... Graduated college, moved back to Hayward (yeah yeah yeah, get over it!), got a job but left that job cause it was aweful, found another job (LOVE IT), built a house (with our bare hands), moved in, first nephew came into the world *NATHAN* , added a few other jobs to pay for house, built a garage.... had some fun, did some traveling, learned a bunch.... And NO... I'm still not married. ;) A friend of mine, of whom I highly respect, recently admitted to me that she was sad that I came back to Hayward - she felt I wasted my chance. I get it: when you're young, single, have a degree (or 2) and you decide to waste the opportunity to do something BIG with your life - you end up losing people's respect. Young adults who move back to small hometowns are usually greeted with a slew of pitiful, disappointed looks and harsh judgement from everybody and their brother. While the kids who "get out" are suddenly put on a pedestal regardless of where they go or what they end up doing. (Darn it, I shoulda been a Vegas showgirl!) I guess I will admit- the first couple years back I was probably thinking "What am I DOING?!"-"Why did I choose THIS?!" After a small portion of my life was spent in self-wallowing and feeling I let everybody down - I have come to realize how BLASTED HAPPY I am to call this home. (Cant say I always love the weather or the lack of good restaurants but I love this place!) Where I am now, is where I have always aspired to be - settling down in a familiar place filled with loving family and friends. I AM doing something with my life - it's called LIVING!!!! When you stop worrying about how much you've "let everybody down" and just start doing what makes you happy - living with your choices becomes so much more bearable and you begin to love yourself the way God intended you to. I think I REALLY get it now - be happy, make others happy with the joy you have and dont look back - you're already doing something BIG!